Wednesday, February 23, 2011

This Is Your Brain On Skill

San Jeronimo, Costa Rica

The problem is every time I sit down to blog my programming still tells me I have to write some mammoth piece.

I should just write one thought. One thing going through my noggin. I'll thank myself later when I know what I thought of.

I used to write so much to relieve nervous energy. Now I'm just relaxed. My pills help me mellow out a lot. I enjoy myself, just sitting on my porch, writing, watching the occasional forest fire. If I drink anything alcoholic I feel sick with the meds so I stick clear with it.

I really enjoy poker, reading, hanging out with my girl, and my general quality of life is much better. I do feel like I've lost a bit of my edge. Most of who I was didn't help me but it also made me. I like how I can just lay on my couch and read through most of a book in one sitting. That used to be impossible for me with how ADD I was. I like being politer and not having tourette's in normal conversation. I kind of miss how I didn't give a shit. Arrogance is a drug too. Get high on it and you just coast through things.

Overall things are alright. Going to LA tomorrow for the LAPC. Guess I should probably book a hotel.

Survivor is Palahniuk at his best. His settings and ideas for furthest realm of human sickness never cease to mess with my mind. The man's morbid view on life is treacherously infectious and so hard to put down.

Dearly Devoted Dexter was absolute crap compared to the first Lindsay novel. I needed all my fingers and toes to count the plot holes.

The Godfather of Poker is interesting, but I felt like they skimmed over some of the best details. Still was motivating to read about what Doyle went through. Makes me realize how lucky I have it to be a professional poker player at this point in time.

Breaking Bad is just excellent excellent television, although it bugs me to realize the writers of a show about selling meth couldn't talk to one dealer. I mean, I don't know shit, but some of these scenes are just laughable implausible and stupid, which really takes me out of what otherwise is a stunningly well put together narrative. You love every character. The way it's filmed just gets you into the gritty mindset. I love electronic escape.

My own book's coming along. 2,000 words a day is really hard. I guess I'm a full time writer now who blows off a lot of work days to play some cards.


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